Starting early tomorrow morning - or in about 5 hours, it’s the beginning of amazing awesomeness. It is the beginning and the end of many things! I couldn’t be more scared & excited! Time to give up on my old hopes & look forward rather then looking back constantly. Somethings are too amazing & awesome to forget but we don’t know how we will feel tomorrow. So many changes it seems like a year has passed in the last two months. Im not going to think about it anymore.
creepy tired& horribly comfy but too cozy & over exhausted to sleep! soo sooo much to do tomorrow! ahhh.
things are getting better I suppose.. still my heart sinks constantly & Im struggling to keep my head above water. Im selling my car & all of my things.. its sad how desperate I am to get out of this place. I wish I was working 80 hours a week - it would keep me from daydreaming about the ocean, the coral reef, the mountains & beautiful things I long to see. I could sleep & cry all day honestly.. knowing how hard this is going to be but I’ve yet to do either completely.
